written by David Bersson
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law
I am writing this essay after meditating on the scenario of mood and will often times being a confusion of the planes; for even some of my more advanced students would be apparently worried that if they do not act upon impulse they are in some way being inconsistent with the Spiritual Goals of Θελημα.
Let us firstly meditate on will. If I state it is my will to do something; this decision manifests from some necessity in the universe of my going and taking action is a must need be.
Let us secondly meditate on mood. If I state it is my mood to do something; this decision may not manifest from the True Will at all; but a disordered ruach or nephesh that is not manifesting Nesehmah nor manifesting the impulse that the earlier initiations had awakened. Of course, an Initiation continues to manifests it True Will into the core of the aspirant's being until it is absorbed in the lower manas; but this is a different perception which will take another carefully created essay where I explain the unconscious will; and the sum of its equation where you know magically what to do yet are not consciously aware of anything in particular being your will. This follows the symbolism of the fool's walk; where no matter what you seem to do the falling objects never seem to strike you. Invoke the Tarot Card; the Fool for further understanding of this point of unconscious primal will as opposed to the active form which for so long lays heavy upon the brow of the weary Aspirant as a consequence of his mood and ego getting in the way of his or her true will.
Shall I give a graphic example of such a problem to further our thesis on this complex problem? Of course, graphic examples are an excellent way to clarify any obscure points and besides, its my will to expound this-- for having recently partaken of good rest and good meal; I now feel I'm in the mood to expound it.
Now, as the instructor I have brothers and sisters coming to me secretly all the time to share their thoughts, insights and ordeals. So I will have several very graphic examples of this problem of what is my will or what is my mood ordeal.
Here's the example. A brother comes to me and we are speaking causally. He mentions that one of the sisters is a trans sexual; and he states causally that if the mood struck him he would probably fuck this trans sexual in the asshole.
Now, this student is obviously very sincere and dedicated. He is trying to show his Superior that he does, after all, accept the Law of Θελημα; and in his eyes he is showing the tolerance of will by expressing an open mindedness that is completely absent in the cursed tribes. Very good. Obviously this aspirant in his moment of patronization to his Instructor forgot himself for a moment. He absolutely neglected whether this mood was the same as his will.
Now, applying the Law of Θελημα to this Aspirant's remark and situation should that aspirant proceed to fuck the trans sexual in the asshole? After all, if its an error of will; you most certainly will find out in short time by actually acting upon the said situation.
Better to of loved and lost than never to have loved at all??? Perhaps. Yet each aspirant must face such Dwellers; and of course the A.·.A.·. Aspirant must know the nature and powers of his own being; and how can you know if you do not experience?
I therefore gave this student no particular instruction on this problem of mood and will; suffice to hand this essay to him so he could meditate on the situation with a little more background and insight.
In the long run; you cannot hide from yourself; nor completely reveal yourself to others; for star and star, system and system will have byways, doorways, and in this case alleyways where not every aspirant will tread; nor be in a position to tread.
I can only point out to aspirants that generally mood is of the Nephesh; and will of the realm of Spiritual Fire; and to tell them to try to not mix the planes-- or lie to yourself about what one really is or becoming.
In conclusion; remember that you should be able with equal confidence state that it is both your will and mood to act in a certain direction without complex nor contradiction.
Love is the law, love under will